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My Hearts Plea

I used to love writing simple poetry when I was younger, but I stopped sometime long ago, today I wanted to try to write again, because as I was looking around my house, I felt sad, I was filled with memories of my husband being here sharing everything with me and I miss him, and as I was looking, I thought of a good start to a poem, Now I want to see If I can finish.

So here is my attempt to a new simple poetry I dedicate to my husband.

Title: My Hearts Plea
Written by: Elaine Malonzo 

(image from: RayArray of deviantart)

What can I do when all I can do is cry
I want to be happy but all i can do is try
What can I say when all that I can think of is sigh
I need to be happy I want my heart to fly.

I look around the empty rooms filled with memories
i feel you here though you are not and all I have are these
lonely nights without you by my side
empty days and lonely moments I try to hide.

I miss you so, how much I can’t explain
when I think of you I feel my heart in pain
I hope all these sadness will come to pass
When I can finally say, “ah, here you are atlast”

I cannot wait forever can’t you see
I am dying inside without you here with me
but what can I do when all I can do is wait
for your return, but please don’t come so late.

and so I say maybe tomorrow will be the day
when you will be coming back my way
So I will wait until the waitings done
for that moment that we again will be one.

I hope you guys like it, If you would like to share it to others, please give credit to this blog :)

and if you have time, please let me know what your thoughts are of my simple poetry?

Momentary Relapse

I have promised myself that I will become a better mother. And I have been doing a great job at it the past 2 weeks. I felt so proud of myself. But tonight I had a momentary relapse. I got so mad at my daughter tonight when she started crying while sleeping for no reason, at first I kept asking and asking her why, but she wouldn’t say a word, she didn’t ask for milk nor did she say she wanted to pee, she just cried and cried and I snapped, I got so mad I screamed at her, then I felt she wanted to pee and brought her to the restroom, when I was pulling her pyjamas down she peed on herself and I got more upset and screamed at her again. I feel so ashamed of myself because the last two weeks I was able to hold it together. There were no anger and more understanding, but tonight I just had to ruin it. I feel so bad but I know there will be moments that I wouldn’t be able to control myself, I am not perfect, but when I looked at her again after she fell asleep I felt so bad. I took her in my arms cradled her like a little baby and told her I am sorry, in my surprise she said “its ok mommy” then I told her I loved her and she said “I love you.” A tear fell from my eyes realizing how forgiving and loving my daughter is, I knew she didn’t deserve the outburst that I had, and I will make up for it. I just need to make sure things like that doesn’t happen again. I love my daughter and I know I mean the world to her, and I will not disappoint her. I have been making progress and I will not stop, I will not let this slip up stop me from pursuing my goal of becoming a better mom. Tomorrow is a new day to make it up to my daughter.

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