Muchas Gracias Mary Grace

Yesterday my college friends and I decided to meet for a movie date. I met becky at around 1 PM at Red Ribbon near their house, then went on our way to Alabang Town Center. We got our Salt Tickets for the screening at 3:15 PM and decided to eat something while waiting for our other friend (Cess) to arrive. Becky said, do you like cakes? Of course I liked cakes LOL :) who doesn’t right? She said she can’t wait to show me a slice of heaven.

We walked from the Movie Ticket Concierge to the front of the Alabang Town Center. I asked her if we were eating the slice of heaven in starbucks, she said no. As we were around the starbucks area, instead of going right to starbucks we turned left and entered a wonderfully decorated and charming restaurant called Mary Grace.

We were seated at a cozy table just beside the side window and browsed the Menu, Becky already knew what she wanted to make me try, so I said we should order something else like a pasta or a sandwich just to have variety on our pallets. Then I decided on ordering the Seafood Pasta (PHP 244 per plate) - A medley of fresh clams, shrimp, squid, mussels, and cream dory which lend their flavors to a tomato based sauce which is enhanced by herbs, olives. and mushrooms. Sounds delectable right? It truly is, I only forgot to take a picture of the wonderful dish, because I got excited to eat it as soon as the plate was set on our table. The pasta is really good and the noodles is really very well prepared, my only problem with the dish is that I hoped there would be two pieces of shrimp. I guess they weren’t telling alie when they said in the description - A medley of clams, SHRIMP, SQUID, mussels, etc. It really only had one shrimp and 1 slice of squid. But the dish is really good, Becky and I were able to finish the whole dish.

After eating the plateful of pasta, Becky and I dove in to her slice of heaven that is called Chocolate Truffle Cake (PHP 194 per slice). When it was first set on the table I thought it looked like any ordinary cake. I tried a piece and it was really heaven. The Cake was served to us initially before the pasta arrived, which made a bit of sense because cake takes a shorter amount of time to slice than to prepare the whole pasta dish. We set it aside for a while to eat the pasta, so the cake was sitting on our table for a bit before we finally devoured it. But to my surprise at first bite of the cake, the slice always seemed cool on my mouth, and every bite you take will make you appreciate the goodness of the cake because it melts in your mouth. The cake is very moist and very balanced in a way that the chocolate flavor doesn’t over power the truffles and the truffles doesn’t over power the chocolate, and the sweetness of the cake is just right - not too sweet not too bland.

This is a real treat for me, being able to spend a fabulous day with my college friends, and experiencing a new and exciting restaurant that I would surely love to visit again.

Photo taken from Mary Grace Cafe Facebook Fan Page

It Gets Easier

As the days roll into weeks and the weeks roll into months, I realize one thing - the distance between my husband and myself gets easier to deal with. When I think about him, when I miss him, I no longer cry like I used to. When I remember things that we used to do, it doesn’t make me want to just sit in corner and mope, instead I learned how to appreciate the things we used to do and smile when I remember. Yes there are moments that I feel hollow and empty inside and there are moments that I feel like I want to hold his hands, touch his face or play with his hair, but those moments pass as easy as they come.

Tonight, I thought about my husband and I missed him, and I felt sad, not because I missed him, but because I no longer had the urge to cry. I felt weird not being able to cry, I no longer had the suffocating ache in my heart when I think about him, I just miss him. It’s not that I want to keep crying every time I think about him, nor do I want the pain to remain in my heart. It’s just that when I do not feel the pain, I feel like my heart has gotten tougher in a way that I don’t want it to be. I do not want to get used to not having him around. I do not want to stop yearning for him, to touch him, to hold him, to kiss him. I do not want to stop wanting to be with him. And everyday that we are not together gets me used to not having him around, and I don’t want to get used to not having him around.

And it’s true, people will tell you, it will get easier, it will get better. The Time will come when you will no longer feel as sad as you feel during the first few weeks after he leaves. It’s true, all these things that they say will happen, but do you really want it to? Do you really want to teach you heart to get used to being apart? I don’t.

I want to keep missing him, I want to keep yearning for him. I want to continue to feel with my heart. I want to feel sad when I think about him, not because I want to be “emo” but because I don’t want to toughen my heart from this emotions, I want to miss him everyday because I want to be excited every moment I get the chance to be with him.

I remember when he was still in the Philippines with me. He would go to work every week day and I will be left at home. And every day during the times that he is due to arrive home, I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from looking at the clock every minute, anticipating his arrival. I did this everyday for the whole 3 years that we lived together. I would get excited when I hear the jingle of his keys, every time I hear his heavy footsteps, I would smile at myself as soon as I hear the back door open. I missed him everyday when he went to work, and get excited everyday for him to come home to me. I don’t want that feeling to stop. I want to keep waiting for him, I want to keep getting excited.

Yes, after a while it gets easier to cope with the sadness. It gets easier to deal with the pain of being left behind. But I really don’t want it to get easier. Because when it gets easier, it also gets easier to forget.

The Window to My Soul

The Window to My Soul.

Fightful Dream

Why is it that when I dream about my husband, I always dream about him and me fighting. Out of all the dreams I had of him, when he was still living with me and now that he isn’t, I always dream of him and me fighting over something, its very rare for me to dream about him and me happy, it only happened twice or thrice in the whole 5 years that we have been together / known each other.

It usually was about him being or flirting with other girls. But its irritating that every time I get the chance to be with him, even just in my dreams, we are never intimate or just happy. But tonight my dream is especially irritating because I dreamt that he already came home for vacation from Singapore. It started out great, no girls, I dreamt about him, Nike and myself. But all of a sudden everything turned sour. He got mad at me for being a Bad Mother and a Bad wife because I wasn’t spending time with him and our daughter. While most of the time in that dream I have been running around looking for them. I can never seem to catch them. And the only time I was able to catch up with them was when he was already very upset and want nothing to do with me.

Why is it that I always end up crying or hurt when I dream about my husband? Is it my fear of losing him? Or is it because our relationship is so perfect that my brain is creating these stories just to spice things up, not that our marriage is not spicy because it definitely is. What is it with Noel in my dreams?

My Little Princess' dream

A Princess Tutu and a Princess Crown

Crown Close Up

Nike-Kay

You know you’re child is kikay when you take her to a store full of toys and what nots and all she ever wants to buy are these two things.

Today I brought my daughter to SM Department Store showed her toys and things and when she saw this ensemble, she would not let it go. She even insisted that she will be the one to pay for it on the cashier (using my money ofcourse). She wouldn’t let me hold it while we were inside the department store, maybe she was scared that I’d put it back. LOL.

Who's Joey Pepperoni?

Image from: Joey Pepperoni Facebook Fan Page

Today I spent the day with my daughter. We went to SM Southmall just so Nike could enjoy a full day of fun, rides and slides. I initially took her to SM Storyland, and contemplated on just buying her two tickets for two rides for PHP 80 or buying her a ride all you can ticket for PHP 250. You can guess what I chose, ofcourse I wanted my daughter to enjoy the day so I bought her the unlimited pass. When she got tired of riding the rides at Storyland I took her to Kids Village (a play and slide place) at the 3rd level of SM Southmall its like a small play gym with a wooden children’s play house a wooden slide and ball pool and a few toys and rockers. I also bought her the unlimited pass that she used to spend 2 hours full of sliding and playing, she even got bullied by a little boy who kicked her back, and threw toys at her, but Nike remained calm and composed, she just ignored the mean boy, she didn’t cry and she just continued playing.

So after a tiresome afternoon both Nike and I were HUNGRY and thirsty. While walking I saw this advertisement of Joey Pepperoni indicating that they had these 99 peso meal with drinks and a buy 1 take 1 pizza for 250 pesos so I got intrigued and the picture looked really yummy. So Nike and I made our way to Joey Pepperoni.

Nike pointed to the first thing that she saw that has rice, The Chicken Strips with Rice and it looked yummy enough so I ordered it and I ordered an 8-inch The works Pizza - It is called the works because it had mushrooms, pepporoni, olives, bacon and all the works. We were asked to wait for 20 minutes for our order, probably because thats how long it usually takes them to cook a meal to order so I agreed, I told them it was okay.

After the 20 minutes was up, we received our orders, and wow, was I disappointed. Not only was the Chicken Strips Dry-Looking it was overcooked, dry and it was not presented well. I forgot to take a picture of the food after it was delivered to us, because Nike was already hungry. But it was an ultimate disappointment. Even the rice was dry, it felt like it was heated from the microwave, it had an unnatural hotness to it. To top off the disappointing look of the dish, the garlic that was meant to be part of the chicken strips was BURNT, it wasn’t the crunchy golden brown garlic that you would expect from a restaurant. It was really burnt, giving the dish a burnt taste to it.

Image of the burnt garlic

Thats what I can say about their 99-Peso Chicken Strips with Rice meal. I do not recommend it at all. But the pizza was okay, it wasn’t the best pizza I have tasted but when you’re hungry it would be a good enough pizza to eat. It tasted normal and it was not burnt. Of course I wasn’t able to take a picture of the whole thing when it was delivered because I was really hungry, but I was able to take a picture of a slice.

The whole pizza was good enough to finish, although it wasn’t something that I would go out of my way of to buy.

We were able to quench our thirst and hunger, but it was not an experience that we are happy about, I probably would not be eating in Joey’s Pepperoni again soon, but I will definitely try them again, someday - because I remember I already ate there before probably around 2 years ago, and the experience was not as bad as this one, but their food is just average tasting. 

14 Day Commitment Challenge: Mystery Shampoo

Today I received the package from the I Commit To Change Team and it consisted of 2 Mystery Shampoos and 2 Mystery Conditioners. I have accepted their 14 Day Challenge to use the Mystery Shampoo and see and feel the transformation of my hair.

I promised myself that to be able to truly see the result of this challenge, I will not tie my hair, so that it would show how much change my hair will actually have. Because when you tie your hair it causes friction that damages the hair strands and then the result of the challenge will be tampered. So for 14 Days I will not tie my hair to see if the Mystery Shampoo and Conditioner will really give me a better crown.

My hair before the challenge is frizzy, it is straight (because of Rebonding) but around the top of my head, there usually are a lot of small unmanageable hair that sticks to the left, right and everywhere. It has gotten a bit dry, because I have not been back to the Salon for almost 8 months now, and the last treatment I got was Rebonding, no hot oil or hair spa whatsoever. So this will really test the Mystery Shampoos powers.

The Questions that are coming to my mind right now are:

1. Will the shampoo make my hair silkier and smoother (no longer dry)?
2. Will it stop the Frizziness?
3. Will it tame the hair on top of my head?
4. Will it affect the previous rebond treatment that was done to my hair?

I will be keeping a daily journal, Video, Photo or just a write up of my 14 day commitment so I could keep track of the progress of my hair.

Day 1: (July 28, 2010)

The Shampoo smelled a little bit like a shampoo that I have been using for a long time, but I cannot quite put my finger on what it was. It gave a fruity aroma that is just relaxing and not intoxicating. It was rich in texture and you will only need a small amount to wash your hair with.

The Conditioner smelled a bit like a normal conditioner, sort of a generic smell which disappointed me a bit, I was expecting the same fruity aroma, but it wasn’t there. The texture of the Conditioner though was very fulfilling, it was very rich and creamy.

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Sorry for the mess in the background, I just wanted to get the video over with. So like I said. After using the Shampoo and the Conditioner in day 1, I expected not to see a lot of difference in my hair. Usually after bath, I would take a bit of time brushing my hair, because it gets a bit tangled, but using the Mystery Shampoo and Conditioner made it easier to comb and to brush. The smell of the Shampoo after washing stayed on my hair giving my hair a fruity aroma.

That’s as far as I can mention about Day 1.

Day 2: July 29, 2010

I used the Mystery Shampoo and Conditioner today - 2nd Day! after bath I brushed my hair with a fine hairbrush and it was very easy to brush yet again. The real test for my hair today was how it could remain light and straight the whole day, it was a very humid day and usually when I use my old shampoo my hair become sticky and frizzy, but today my hair seemed fresh through out the day.

A Picture of me and my hair after a long day of humidity, playing and sweating

Day 3: July 30, 2010

I haven’t been able to pay so much attention to my hair today because of the busy schedule. I had to attend a free pictorial today that I wasn’t able to examine my hair.

Day 4: July 31, 2010

Today while taking a bath, I realized that when I shampooed my hair with the mystery shampoo there seems to be less falling hair, usually when I shampoo my hair seems to break and fall, and I could grab a handful (around 20-30 pcs) of hair during bath, but today it seemed less, I noticed only around 4-6 pcs of hair which is really amazing for me. And while taking a bath, I noticed that when I wet my hair it wasn’t all tangled even though I haven’t brushed my hair before taking a bath. And I also received a compliment for my hair when my friend asked me if I had it recently rebonded. I guess the changes are slowly showing! :)

Me and my healthier hair

Day 8: August 4, 2010

I haven’t been able to update the last three days due to a hectic schedule, but I made sure to stick to my commitment in using the Pantene Shampoo and Conditioner on a daily basis. And the last three days I really have been noticing a lot of difference in my hair. I noticed during bath that my hair fall has really decreased to 90%, I often get scared of my hair falling off one day because I often get a lot of falling hair while taking a bath, but since I started using Pantene, the hair fall has really decreased to a noticeable amount. Also, after my hair dries its not frizzy anymore, usually the top of my head is filled with short hair that sticks all over the place, but now it is tamed and my hair seemed softer and more manageable. I am really loving the difference I am experiencing.

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Remembering Vanilla Suites

I remember around December 2007 (almost 3 years ago) Noel and I decided to take our 1 year old daughter (who is now 3.5 years old) to our first ever family vacation. We were supposed to go to a different hotel but ended up not wanting to drive so far away from the restaurants that we decided to scout for a different hotel that would be pretty and relaxing enough and will be just a few minutes away from the restaurants.

We left the house really early because we wanted to enjoy the day in Tagaytay, we ended up scouting for a place to stay for and hour or so, we found good enough places that almost tickled our fancy but when we saw Vanilla Suites - we fell in love. It was so gorgeously serene and green and peaceful that we just had to stay there.


The People who attended to us were very friendly and followed our every whim. Well, we were very easy people to please, they gave us complimentary drinks while we were waiting for the room that we were going to stay in. The picture above is the view from the second floor of their very homey and comfortable restaurant.



And this picture is the view of the ground floor area that is overlooking a vast green land and Taal, where small intimate gatherings could be hosted.

After just a short wait, our room was ready for us, and when we stepped in it was immaculately clean and beautiful, the king sized bed was big enough for my husband, my daughter and myself to sleep comfortably in. The Bathroom was big and glorious and spotless, with hot and cold shower and the toilet was sparkling clean and brand new. And the view outside the window was spectacular. There also is a television, dvd player, airconditioning and a small coffee table that you can use if you wish to order room service.




And just outside our bedroom / cottage, there is a staircase going down a huge space with a great view where my daughter, my husband and I spent the afternoons just playing around, and taking in the beauty of Tagaytay.



The Breakfast they serve is really sumptuous as well. They give really big serving and the plateful of breakfast is more than enough to keep you satisfied. I remember getting 4 pieces of sausages, scrambled eggs, fresh fruit slices and my choice of coffee or juice. Everything was fresh, delicious and cooked to order. I just loved this heavenly place and the lush greens that we were able to experience. This place is really great to get you rejuvenated and to keep you relaxed.


A Picture of myself and my daughter walking in their pathway on the way to the restaurant. My husband taking the picture from the second floor of the restaurant.

Raindrops on the ground

Raindrops on the ground

Raindrops on the ground

Raindrops on the ground

Like Rain our troubles seem to come to us like one big blow that will make you cry. Its like darkness that overcomes you like the rain overcomes the sky, making your day dark and gloomy, it hides the sun and takes the brightness away. But like the rain, your troubles will melt away into a a gush of tears that you must release, and once its over you will see your tears hit the ground and they will linger for awhile, but you will eventually see the sun, you will have a brighter day and all the pain that seems to settle heavily on your shoulders will evaporate and will be taken by the light breeze and you will see the day in a whole new way, cleaner and lighter.

If you have troubles do not be afraid to cry, do not be afraid to let it out, do not keep it inside, because if you do, it will create a storm and create destruction in your soul and might take longer for you to recover. Let the tears flow and know that after a little while the sun will shine and your fears, your troubles will simply drift away.

My Super Daughter

The best part of my life is my daughter. She gives me strength and motivates me to do better everyday. She wakes me up every morning with her amazing smile that gives me the courage to face the challenges of life everyday. She makes me a better person and pushes me to be a better mother and a better individual altogether.

I have never known I could care about anyone or anything in this world more than I care about myself. She is the super girl in my life because her smile can melt my heart and I never want to see her in pain, and that gives me the feeling that I need to be a Super person so I can protect her and give her everything that she needs.

Whenever I am crying and she sees me crying, she tells me “Its ok mommy, don’t cry”. She kisses me in the sweetest way that makes me feel like she’s kissing all my troubles away. She is everything in my life, and everything in my life is happening because of her. She is my super hero, as much of a cliche as that may sound, but she is. I know tomorrow everything will be ok, because she’s here.

I would like to think that I am the one teaching her about life, but she has taught me about life and unconditional love more than anyone has ever taught me, and that makes her the most important part of my life.

This is her, my super girl.



And this is me and My Super Daughter just enjoying an afternoon together



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Italian Chicken Pasta

The Full Bowl Of Italian Chicken Pasta

A Closer Look at Yumminess

Individual Containers

Yummy Grated Cheese

The Herbs and Spices

The Delicious and Rich Sauce

The Perfectly Cooked Swirly Pasta

Cheese and Pesto Bread from Pugon

Italian Herb Chicken Pasta

I made a decision yesterday that today, Saturday July 24, 2010, will be Italian Pasta day. I want to recover the reputation of my Italian Pasta after cooking a disastrous pasta in Pasig. NOT MY FAULT, my cousin used the pasta sauce I was going to cook and I ended up using TOMATO sauce which is a really, really bad idea, Anyway today, the meal was delicious, Nike enjoyed every bite, and I was glad that I was able to bounce back after such a sour disaster =P

t was really delicious, even my daughter finished her plate full of pasta, and our Nanny enjoyed a really full bowl of it. Yummy!

Extreme Sadness and Anger

I was on the second floor of some building, waiting for Noel, just patiently waiting. It was like a video that I’m watching. I saw him arrive on a van with my mom. My Mom stepped off the van, and Noel, who was driving the van did too. He took of his windbreaker and he jumped back in the car, but this time he sat on the front passenger seat. Kharen, an old highschool friend, sat in the drivers seat. That’s when it all happened. I felt uncomfortable and uneasy, and then, the car started at such speed that I knew that it was going to crash. And after a blink of an eye the van was ransacked and Noel was inside. I couldn’t move, all I could do was stare, I was so afraid of what I would find out. I stayed glued to the floor, waiting, patiently waiting for Noel to emerge from the wreckage.

(PHOTO FROM: orankutanki - DEVIANTART.COM)

Suddenly a movement, I saw a hand reach out from under the cars debris. Then the worst news arrived, my sister, shocked from all the events, and panting from running up a flight of stairs told me, “He is dead, he didn’t survive, Noel is dead”. My world crumbled like I’ve never felt it crumble before. I was filled with so much sadness and so much anger that I just needed, I wanted to kill someone.

I ran, I ran as fast as I could towards the wreck, not to see my husband but to run toward Kharen, the person responsible for my husbands death. I ran towards her and I wanted to kill her, I will kill her, I will choke her to death when I reach her. She saw me coming and ran, she ran for her life. I keep running and running towards her and just when she was within my reach she got away. I stopped running and cried.

I was inside a car, on the way to a vacation house with my sister, my family and my high school friends. I can control the weather, I envisioned small whirlwinds forming right next to my friends’ car and there they were. I will have my revenge. I formed 5 small whirlwinds that followed the car to wherever we were going. I had it hide somewhere a bit, before I destroy Kharen.

(PHOTO FROM: kibasuki)

We got to our destination and Nike was there climbing the stairs, I hurried toward her, held her hand and I cried. I thought of Noel. I missed him, I was ballistic and extremely sad. I came closer to Kharen and with all the hate in the world I told her “I HATE YOU.” Then I woke up. It was all a dream, a very bad dream.

Usually our dreams are our ways of expressing our pent up emotions and the small things you see through out the day that you take for granted. For example, I dreamt about Kharen because I know I saw her picture yesterday in facebook, and that image was pushed farther back from my consciousness, Noel was there, well, because I always miss him and I try to push that emotion back so that I would not feel sad. The emotions anger and sadness are usually hand in hand. I got a bit sad yesterday because of a particular event that I have been hoping for that did not happen. So when I fell asleep my brain created this whole story that incorporated the emotions and things that I saw that I try to set aside. Its my body’s way of releasing what is killing me inside.

all in all I am glad that it was just a dream, it felt good to wake up and see my daughters smiling face. But what will I dream about tomorrow? 

My Heart on the Wall

You can stare at a wall all day and tell yourself, its nothing but a wall. Or you can stare at the wall and really look at it, all these images will pop out, and you can create your own story, one that will make you look at that wall in a whole new light. Today as I stared on the wall just at the back of our house, I created a whole new story.

I found my heart on the wall, the wall of the house that my husband, our daughter and I shared. Here our love will forever be reminiscent, our love and laughter will forever be a part of this house. And I call dibs to this heart on the wall and it will forever be mine.



like in life, when it seems to bring you nothing, look closer and you will see your story, your life unfolding right before your very eyes.

Taking Action - WD

Western Digital Philippines - Facebook Fan Page

I am a firm believer of the idea that IF YOU WANT SOMETHING TO HAPPEN, YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT HAPPEN. This goes to the thought that if you want to see results you have to look for ways to get the results.

I have been a little bothered by the Western Digital Philippines - Facebook Fan Page, because the administrators seem to have vanished into thin air. They do not update the page anymore, they do not answer inquiries, and they left a contest hanging without any winner announcements.

All of its fans have been patient with waiting for the result which should have been announced on July 15, 2010 or even before that, we have patiently inquired and re-inquired about the winners but no one seems to be reading our messages because no one is answering. I am concerned NOT because I think I won, but because they made a commitment to their fans that they will give away prizes to a contest that they held, and we as the contestants trusted that they will deliver. But until today, No response.

So I took my own actions, I did not know what else to do:

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I hope this will be able to help all of us who have been waiting to get the results we wanted from Western Digital Philippines Facebook Fan Page.

A Weird Dream

I woke up around 30 minutes ago, Nike and I slept a bit late last night. Anyway I wanted to write this very weird dream while its still fresh in my mind, it was probably the weirdest most realistic dream I felt in along time.

The setting was a mixture of some other persons old house and our house in Pasig. We were all rushing to take a bath because we will be late for school (weird yeah?!) So I just finished taking a bath and was fixing myself, beautifying and all that — you need to take note that I’m doing all these in somebody else’s house, then the doorbell rang and someone called me telling me that Allan was waiting for me downstairs (Allan Garcia was my crush when I was in grade 6 - he was in grade 5 but we were the same age) I remember hurrying up to get dressed and I wanted to put make up on but there was no time, so I dabbed my Maybelline pressed powder on my face and I wanted to put lipstick on but my lipstick slipped through my fingers and fell on the ground, I hurried down the stairs and went on the front door. Now the setting of this part of my dream has transformed to my parents house in Pasig. So Allan was standing outside the gate, and I asked him to come inside. The reason he came over was to borrow my books and notes for Chemistry and 1 more subject that I couldn’t recall. I remember telling him that my notes wouldn’t be much use to him because the teaching styles of both our teachers are much too different. Then like in every dream, that scene vanished. 

The next thing I remember was I was walking up the stairs, I’m hearing voices through the window, its like a phone conversation between Noel and another girl (weird thing is I can hear the voice of the girl from the other line, while Noel was talking to her over the phone) So I got curious and went inside the room where Noel was, he had his back from the door and when I came inside he barely noticed, so I can hear giggling, I can even hear them talking about TUNA, LOL. Anyway I came closer and Noel noticed me and immediately unhooked the phone. Then I asked him who that was, I was jealous this time, and he got angry, he said he was tired of me, he feels like he is on a chain and something like that and wants to be free, he kept yelling at me, I felt so awful, jealous and broken hearted and I stepped out of the room feeling defeated.

The next scene of my dream probably was a few months after because I was with a new guy - I don’t know who this guy was, but he was tall, and he looked sort of like a Hollywood actor. Anyway we were walking around somewhere and he had me on piggy back and he said — This is it, I guess I should ask here Will you __ Me — In my dream the words “Marry” seemed taboo, it was forbidden to be mentioned. Anyway, in my dream, when the actor dude asked me to Marry him my thought suddenly jolted back to Noel because I still loved him, and suddenly he was watching us (the Hollywood Actor dude and me) and listening on our conversation. The actor dude asked me again, this time he put me down from the piggy back and kneeled down in front of me flashing me with a ring that I don’t remember what it looked like and said again “Will you __ Me”, I remember feeling torn and surprised and I said Yes, and I saw Noels face fall.

The next scene I remember I was kissing this actors mouth and I felt it, I remember feeling the kiss so vividly, like it was real. We were kissing for a long time when someone called me because there was someone calling on the phone for me. It was Cherry — Noel’s sister. She was telling me that Noel really didn’t mean to break up with me, and that all these is just a big mistake, and that Noel still loves me and is heartbroken that I accepted the actor dudes proposal, she was also telling me that Noel said that he wanted to break free a little because he felt like he was being smothered but he didn’t want to break up, blah blah blah, and I just kept on listening to Cherry and when I was to answer her back, I suddenly woke up.

LOL, it was the weirdest dream ever, because I don’t usually dream about guys that I don’t know, and the situation on the dream seemed so weird, but it felt so real, every touch and every word seemed real. And it was weird because usually when I dream about Noel, its usually like he has another girl on the side and I just end up feeling upset and I cry my eyes out in my dream.

Anyway, thats it. I have a really creative mind, did you know I have a dream everytime I sleep and I often remember them when I wake up and just forget them as I go about my daily activities. So I have an idea. Starting today I will document every dream I have, everyday, that way I will have something to write about on a day to day basis, besides my private thoughts and feelings you will now be able to read about my private dreams.

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Good Bye My Friend

(Photo From: a-handy-stock)

Lost Friend. We were once close, we shared life stories and love stories and all sort of stories that you can ever think of. We used to share a life together, one that I once thought would never be broken. But one think in life you have to learn is that friendship is also a relationship, and you can break up, fall out, and fall apart, for whatever reason.

It is not in my philosophy to hate friends that I used to love, or to be the enemy of my old friend, but when I lose one, I just start feeling indifferent, unaffected to whatever life may take them. I do not want to say that I don’t care about them, but eventually like everything else, you learn not to care about that person you used to care about your whole life. Suddenly they will no longer exist. You don’t hate them, you just don’t care, they just don’t matter anymore.

And I got to thinking, I broke up with boyfriends in the past but eventually I was able to rekindle the friendship I had with them, we are still able to maintain a healthy distant friendship. We can talk one day and talk like it was just yesterday when we last saw each other, but what happens when a friendship ends? I guess the path to take is to pretend like you never even knew each other, and sooner or later that friend who is no longer your friend will cease to exist.

You will erase them in your life, like they never have been part of it at all. You will lead separate lives and lose touch and never talk again.

If and when you lose a friend, it is sad, definitely for the first two days it will make you feel sad because of all those memories you shared with them, and the wasted years you spent loving them. But you will move on, you will realize there are a lot of other friends, deserving friends that you can now concentrate and focus on. One that will not waste your efforts and your love.

Friendship like all relationships is a two way street, it requires work, patience, understanding and trust. It might even be the hardest relationships to break, the toughest to rekindle and impossible to get back once lost. So if you have a friend that bid you goodbye, say goodbye with an open heart, let them leave and let other people in. Because a friend that gives up on you is not a friend worth having. This new path that life will take you will allow you to meet new and everlasting friends that will treasure what you (photo from: plectrude)                                         have to offer, no buts, no ifs, no whens.

So bid your lost friend goodbye, be bitter for a while and be sad, but tomorrow feel better because it is another opportunity to make life long friends.

Evolution of I commit to change

I commit to change is a Fan Page in Facebook that I discovered the day after it was founded. The page is so unique from the other fan pages in Facebook because they encouraged people like myself to commit to change to become better people. It didn’t matter what your commitment was, they encouraged and supported their fans to post their own personal commitments to change and to keep them updated with their fans progress. They even gave daily prizes to those they feel had the most unique commitments and they also offered a huge prize to commitment stories and blogs submitted to their page.

At first I thought this page was too good to be true, but I was hooked, addicted to check their page everyday and check on my fellow fans commitments. I have seen a lot of inspiring commitments (2nd page) and some are hugely unique. I even submitted my own daily commitments and submitted my own life long commitment story. And I stuck to their page like glue, I kept them updated with my progress and I kept reading others commitments on a daily basis.

But before I got hooked, I thought to myself, who would start such a cause-conscious fan page and give this outrageous prizes. It made me wonder, but I felt good whenever I was in their page that it didn’t really matter. They helped me reach a point in my life where my daughter and myself have been able to rekindle our love for each other and we are in a good place because of the encouragement of the people of I commit to change and my fellow fans.

Now that their daily commitment promotion is almost over, I thought, what would be next? Would people stop supporting the page because they will no longer be giving out freebies, I felt sad for a short while, because I honestly did not want the fan page to die, it is like a second home to me. But lo and behold they introduce a new tab in their fan page called the 14 Day Commitment, which had this slogan:



And I thought, wow! I’m glad the fan page is continually evolving and that it is now introducing new concepts to us, and most, if not all of the page fans and supporters is getting more and more excited about what the page has in store for us.

Now we are seeing a lot more growth in the page as they introduce the Mystery Shampoo 14-Day Commitment Challenge, and I am more excited than ever. I can’t wait to be part of this amazing uncovering, and everyone can be a part of the pages’ growth too, just join us and let’s experience the growth together.

Besides joining the I commit to change fan page, we can also join the unveiling of the Mystery Shampoo, not only can we be part of something amazing, but we can also get the chance to win cool prizes by joining the movement and referring friends.

Here are the list of prizes:

• 1 Winner of Blackberry Bold


• 2 Winners of 5,000 Ayala EGC


• 2 Winners of IPod Shuffle


• 3 Winners of The Spa Gift Certificate


• 3 Winners of Enjoy Philippines Card


• 3 Winners of Moleskine

There will be a total of 14 winners after this promotion is over, and not only will you be able to win things, at the I Commit To Change Fan Page you can and will meet tons of friends that will help you become a better person and support you with your personal commitment to change, they have the done the same for me.

Hunger Buster

This Afternoon I am feeling really good, maybe its the vitamins that I started taking or maybe its because I was able to wake up at 7 AM this morning :) But I decided to Bust my Hunger with a 5 minute quick fix meal that is oh so delicious! Nike and I prepared a meal to share :)

My Buttered Pan Grilled Cheese

The Ingredients:



2 Slices of Walterbread Weight Control Sliced Bread
3 Slices of Eden Melt Sarap Cheese / 2 Eden Cheese Singles
1 Teaspoon butter

The Process:



Melt the butter in low heat and place the 2 slices of bread to toast and absorb the melted butter. Flip and turn to have an even toast on both side of the bread.



Once toasted place the cheese on top of one of the sliced bread.



and cover it with the other bread to form a SANDWICH! :) Continue toasting the bread for a few seconds, to melt the cheese. Once perfectly toasted.



Slice the Buttered Pan Grilled Cheese into half or cut them into small animal shapes or fun shapes using a cookie cutter.

And then serve with Ice-Cold MILO! :)

Yumminess!



Doesn’t that just make you want to eat? :)